A couple of weeks ago we took Arwyn to see an allergist. She has shown signs of being allergic to peanuts since she was a baby and recently the list had grown to include cats and dogs. I wanted to know for certain what exactly we were dealing with and maybe justify my mother’s instinct just a little bit.
After a skin prick test we were informed that she was indeed allergic to peanuts and also tested “close enough” to allergic to tree nuts that we should avoid those as well. We were given a prescription for an EpiPen Jr., told to get some blood work done and report back in a few weeks for a follow up appointment. We are supposed to be reading all food labels and limiting her exposure as much as we can. At the follow up appointment we will find out what the blood work says about the severity of her allergy.
I get so frustrated when friends and family don’t take this seriously or just don’t think about it when she is around. I know they aren’t used to thinking about it, but it is becoming second nature to me (it has to be) and my patience wears thin. As far as we know she isn’t severely allergic. I think I would be a basket case if she were. I already feel like the Crazy Food Mom at her school. She’s never had anything but a skin reaction and we hope it will stay that way. We have the EpiPen just in case. Just in case she stops breathing and someone has to jab a needle into her leg to save her life.
Food shopping has become a new and time consuming experience. You have to read the labels on everything. As far as I can tell, there aren’t really any guidelines. Some companies list possible allergens at the end of the ingredient list and some don’t. A company may change the way it manufactures its products, so you have to check the labels every time, even if you think they are safe. Today I practically danced a jig in the middle of the aisle at the grocery because I found a granola bar without nuts that I thought she would eat. But I am still unsure. Unsure of how vigilant I am supposed to be. Unsure if the buns I bought today are safe for her to eat. Unsure if she will outgrow this or if it will worsen with time.
I know that we are the lucky ones and there are parents out there dealing with this nightmare on a daily basis. I sincerely feel for them. It feels like nothing has changed and yet it has. I already knew she couldn’t have peanuts or peanut butter. But now I have this horrible vision of her not being able to breathe and me not being there to save her. To me there is nothing worse than something awful happening to my child and I cannot image living in constant fear for her life. I realize that we don’t live in a war torn or ravaged country and some people live with much worse fears in their lives. She can’t have nuts, boo hoo. But as the one meant to protect her, it adds a new responsibility to the ever growing list and that doesn’t feel all that great.




















